here was a time when I felt I had an entire lifetime to tackle an issue, even when the issue was not small. I realize that some issues, if not handled immediately, may actually shorten my life.
Now, I am deciding to tackle a big issue in my life, fibroids. While I know that my issue is not a unique one and not that big, it has been one that I have avoided.
The first diagnosis of fibroids was 10 year ago. At that time, I was experiencing a divorce and I thought I was still young enough to still have more children. Let me just say, first, that children thing quickly faded. But at that time, I didn’t want to select the extreme option to conquer my fibroids. As a result, I tried some natural ways to attack them. Later, I even chose to have an endometrial ablation. Even though my physician advised me that it likely would not work, I chose it anyway. And she was right, it did not work. Afterwards, I just waited.
I am not sure why it took me 10 years to do something about it, but this is where I am. Seriously, I do know why it took me so long. I was hoping that they would disappear or at the very least I would begin menopause. You see, I did all the ‘research’ and most reported that menopause might prove to be a process that could shrink these fibroids. Yes, I researched it on the internet because we all know Google and YouTube are supposed to have all the answers. The search did provide some natural options for attacking these fibroids.
Somehow, I thought I would return my tummy to its flat stage by simply following the steps and information I found on the internet. Because really that is all I did. Yeah, I found some good information and suggestions on how to attack these fibroids but all I did was read. I did some of the suggestions: I changed my diet, added certain activities and even began taking certain vitamin and enzyme supplements. One huge adjustment was juicing daily to cleanse the liver. Do you know how cumbersome it is to juice every day? I was not consistent.
I remember, when I was younger, I worked very little to keep my flat tummy. My flat tummy effortlessly returned even after giving birth to my third child after a c-section. Man I haven’t seen that flat tummy for over 10 years now and no matter how much I mindfully shrink my tummy, it is not working. Maybe the problem is that my mind is stuck in its 30’s, while my body knows its 50…oh wait maybe I need to do the real work.
So today, I am considering some serious options for attacking these fibroids. You see I want my body back, or at least ‘that’ body that responds to changes in eating habits and exercise. I also want a healthier me.
I know this journey is not going to be easy. Yes, making the choice may be easy, but actually doing it is a different story. I do not want surgery. In fact, for years surgery was not an option. However, I must put it on the table now. My healing is important, and I must move out of fear and trust and have faith in the process. I have met with my gynecologist and am I have been referred to a specialist because of the size of my uterus. I have received the good, the bad and the ugly and now on to the next steps. I will not lose momentum and I am committed to finishing this journey to a heathier me.
I know that other women share this same journey and may be looking for ways to attack it head on just like me. There is one thing for sure, I don’t have all of the answers. So I welcome you to join me and let’s walk together. Share your comments, questions and your stories below.